Today, I lost all my prior pictures, period. I possibly tried everything in order to save my pics, everything failed. oh, God.

I have to face it,I lost all my pictures through the years. To me, it seems like all the past memories have suddenly go blank.

what I should do? the only pics I can still see are the ones post on my blog month ago. how ironic, because I thought computer is

not reliabe, it crashed several times before, I saved all my pics in the stupid sonly memory stick card. Now neither my sony desktop, nor

my sony camera recognize the stupid memory stick pro duo card which only can be used in sony electronics. I even tried it in my sony PSP,

same result, all these sony family members don't want to addmit this poor little sony stick is a member . oh, God, I am so frustrated.

I begin to think somehow the " hign tech" is not such a great thing that ever happend to the human world. The digital world seems so

cold and cruel to me now. it is not like the old fashioned photo, it is still warm right after the print out and you can even keep the film to

reprint it forever. now days every wrapped with pastic thing, I am now starring at this sony memory stick pro, Jesus, what I should do?

     Well, after I lost the blog of my sorrow time, I believe I just can not make it into a rountine. Record whenever I am low. it is kind of ironic that

I never write anything down when I am happy. maybe it is my personality: always left bad thing in my memory. I guess it is not a healthy way to go. that is why always remember the dark side of things as well as people. it is alreay a week since qiaoqiao left. it is so weired that I don't miss him. it is even more surprised to me that Miss woobie doesn't feel a thing. It seems that qiaoqiao, the elder brother once she depended on so much never existed. I have to convince myself over and over that I did the right thing. I pray for him, hope that he will find a family that will love him as much as I once did, and he will love them as well.

   

Simply as eating a piece of cake,  I want an airline ticket from San Francisco to shanghai. Now days, especially the China olympic thing, price is soaring. Even the United airline, the most uncomfortable trip I have had in my life, has the eye dropping price tag. Doesn't matter how many website I went to , the results are the same. Do I just want a comfortable seat at a resonable price? oh, hell no, I asked too much. Now I begin to confused about how steve got his ticket by just calling a single travel agent, amazingly at the price of $350, and even more, on the best airline in the world--Singapore Airline.  Although, this happend about 9 years ago, it became a pain to me whenever I book air ticket.  Why I care so much about it, just a ticket back, take it easy. Sorry, I can't. I regret to say that even The United State is among the most developed nations in world, maybe just because of that (air travel is as simple as bus route), all the airline within US are awful!!!!!! YES, they are all awful.  don't believe? how bad are they?

     To be a nice person is not as rewarding as usual. People are taking advantage of it. I has been blamed

again and again of being nice. I think I am weak. I try to smile, try to speak in a tender tone, try to do as

much as I can to make things go smoothly. ha ha ha, the world doesn't run this way.  There is absolutely no

harmony when there is no trust and lies all over. the weather turned to be just like our humans, ugly !!!

Am I innocent, or guilty. it is my fault to be a fool sometimes. Then I realized, oh, it should not be this way,

I have to fight, therefore argument and dirty faces arise. People shocked, oh " I thought you are so nice "

so irony. I laugh at them, laugh at myself. I am nice, from the beginning, hope to the end. My kindness was

never rewarded but punished. should I learn this hard lesson?

     Being Nice is weak--- my weakness. Especially, when I face people I thought as nice as I am. Wrong, indeed.